I probably look really stupid right now...

Don't you ever get those kinds of feelings?
I know I do. ahahha
like right now, being on this laptop,
I'm awake even though I'm supposed to be asleep.

I know I can fall asleep, but
my mind won't rest,
my soul's not at ease.

Thereforrre~

THE RULES ARE:
"you post these rules"
"each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal"
"you have to choose and tag"
"go to their pages and tell them you tagged them"

1- I'm not always as sad as my blog shows I am. Sometimes, I'm in a good mood, but that doesn't last long. It's not worth mentioning here.

2- To be honest, I think everyone has a chance at love. I might hurt and kill myself, but that doesn't mean I don't have hope that one day I'll find someone who will love me, Michou~ have faith. Marriage doesn't always mean a "happy ever after"!

3- I need a job, so I think I'll sign up at Shoppers with Sora. We'll see. I actually do want a job there. ahahahaha

4- My favourite character in DRRR is Anri. She reminds me a lot of myself. I LOVE the soundtrack, goddd, the deviant I got this meme from said she hates it. I think she's the same one who like RADWIMPS. WTF how can she like RADWIMPS but not like the DRRR soundtrack? Weirdo.

5- hm... You know, lots of times, I think to myself that maybe I was lucky I didn't fall in love, and then date, and then get hurt. 'Cause then, I didn't have a reason to run from myself. You know? I mean, I had my life problems, but I dealt with them early on. Maybe because I'm like Anri. I'm a parasite that lives off other people's loves, all because I can't love. So, because I can't love, I always loved myself or hated myself, and hurt myself, and then healed myself. I've always been alone, it seems like. I'm not standing with my own two feet, but I'm standing on my own.

6- To be deadly honest, my first crush was... -drum roll- Artemis Fowl. Fictional character, but still, to this day, I'll NEVER get sick of characters that have black hair and blue eyes. Like really, if I ever meet an ACTUAL guy like that, I'd fall head over heels in less than a second. My heart would flutter and delusions would be the obvious first choice to get to purgatory. Problem is, they only exist in England and even then, they are one rare type. T^T ahahaha bet you never knew that.

7- I'm a shounen-ai/BL fan girl. It's not the hot guy x hot guy thing that I like, it's the cute taboo, embarrassed, shy part that I like. Like with Hetero couples it's all out in the open, and sure, there's that worry of being rejected or not, and then the whole shy thing, BUT STILL. There's not much problems with a girl and a guy! With a guy and a guy, GOD, they can get so embarrassingly emotional! So much so, that it's cute! Well, the only thing is, I'm a fujoshi. I don't like real gay stuff. Like, dramas with gay guys or that stuff. I just like the manga stuff. I MEAN, omg, the last one I read was about a straight pornography actor who never felt love and lost his virginity to his career. Then he meets this totally normal salaryman (guy who just works at an office), and he plummets right down to his first love sick meltdown! Imagine if a pornography actor fell in love with a straight girl! WTF right? RIGHT? That's what I mean! There's the taboo that's wayyyy too goood~ xD AND OMG Love Pistols! JESUS that is ONE GOOD MANGA. Michou, if I ever find it again, even in a book store, I'm buying it and I'll DEFINITELY lend it to you! You don't know what gay love is until you read that manga! DEAD SERIOUS. IT'S WAY CUTE.

8- I'm realllllllllllyyyyy passionate about my manga and anime. OH YEAH, I'M SO EXCITED FOR THE KIMI NO TODOKE LIVE ACTION DRAMA! FUCK! IT'S GOING TO BE AMAZING! I'm reading the manga and watched the whole anime ^O^~!!! I can't wait for the drama! Oh right, but I'm not into cosplaying. Sorry, but I'll leave that to the pros. ahahahaha I hate wannabe Japanese people who "pretend" to cosplay and end up looking like they have Halloween costumes on. Hating on Narutards the most. They're the ones to blame for sabotaging the whole fucking series. I love it at the beginning, now I just fucking hate it and it's fans.

9- Another thing I get excited about that's Anime related is ONE PIECE. I LIVE FOR THAT ANIME. I'm sooooo going to read it soon, but currently I'm following Fairy Tale. I REFUSE TO WATCH THAT ANIME. Don't even try with me. Once I catch up to where Fairy Tale is, I'll go head on over to One Piece. Too many shounen mangas will just drain the life out of me.

10- last thing is that I need to call St. Joe's. I REALLY need to know if they accepted me yet or not. If they haven't, I just gotta find a new school, and real soon. I should get a job and get working for Summer school fees. I gotta make something of myself T^T.

Most of this post is about anime and my fujoshi-ness. ahahahaha Thanks for reading!