ROFL.

ビーム！
nayu @Pixiv
I admit, I find this image to be hilarious.
Have I ever told you how much of a pervert I think I am?

Especially when I compare myself to Sora.

Like, wow, am I the only one who understands that sex is... like, essential to one's health and well-being?



※BLっぽいかも※落書き（創作）
るこ @Pixiv
I mean, thinking a guy is hot
and having hots for a guy
are two completely different things.

I mean, of course there's the cute fluffy kind of love that I adore.


指先
優 @Pixiv
But I get tired of it.

I'm more for the kind of heated, passionate, dark chocolate kind of love.
The one that's a little "kinky" sometimes, I admit, but completely takes over one's being.
Like in the fanfiction Memories by Stark, their love is passionate and hot and needy. It's rough and calloused, but firm and assertive. That kind of warm love isn't as superficial as those shoujo mangas, with people with glowing skin and flowers blooming in the background.
That kind of puri puri kira kira kind of love, really pisses me off sometimes.

Sometimes, the girl might think the guy looks hot, but that doesn't mean she's got the hots for him. Take, example, myself.

I look at guys and think, "God, he's hot."
Does not directly translate to: "I'd let him bang me."
On the other hand, if I meet a guy and become friends with him, and I think he's hot, this becomes: "I've got the hots for him."
Directly translating to: "I love him."

In those stupid shoujo mangas, they mix that up. A stupid, naive, and supposedly cute girl walks into a scary, perverted, and most likely older guy, thinks he's hot, and then she lets the guy bang her.
She's a whore now.

I mean, yes, sex is sometimes made to look ugly. I'm not saying it's always beautiful.
Like in Hentai, where tentacles and massive boobs are in every scene.

Although, slow and gentle sex with heated breath caressing another's heated skin, can be even more sweet and cute than pink flowers and glittery eyes.
There's the passion that you can't see, but is there. There's the heat that feels like a fever and makes you light-headed, but overwhelms you in sensation. There's the sound of your heart almost painfully pounding in your rib cage, but makes the overwhelming sensations to die for.

The bitter sweetness of love hurting you, but just so you would never forget. And every time you feel the other person's love touch you, it becomes even more and more painful because you don't want to let the heat overwhelm you and make it stop.

It's different for everyone, but I don't think that sweet sugar-coated candy is even half as sinfully good as that rare, bitter-sweet raspberry dark chocolate.


成長したら危険
花えん @Pixiv

But even though I say all of this, there are limits I have to make.
Most people don't take this the right way when I say it.
So I have to pick and choose my words carefully, when describing the kind of love that I want.

I can't describe how many times I've been wrongly accused that my definition of love is... superficial, fake, unrealistic, and most of all, perverted.

Then I look at the kind of love that people are trying to show me as realistic and "pretty" and "cute".
Disgusting.

Whatever happened to the "naive" thinking that sex should only be with a person you love. Apparently, the new "cute&naive" is all about having a cute girl with a perverted guy and losing your virginity like a whore.

On the other hand, Kimi Ni Todoke is way overload on the cute level.
Too naive, too sweet, too... shoujo. They don't even kiss in that manga/anime.
=A= I wanted to beat someone up from how cute it was.
Although, like I said before, it's still true that I liked it once in a while. It's a nice contrast to something like Memories.

I think I'll wrap this post up now.

I think I can say I'm more of a pervert than my other friends, but I'm more of a romantic than them, too.
I think that's fair.