Once again, I'm a morbid BL fangirl.There's something
definitely wrong with me.
As of late,
Break To Breathe is my favourite fan fiction in the world.@___@ It's mind-boggling. It's... heart-wrenching and deep and sensual and
holy shit, I can't sleep if I don't finish it. Like with Memories.
God, I
know this is bad for my health. Dude, I'm sleeping at like, the crack of dawn and even later! Sometimes even
mid-morning! But I can't stop! I mean, it was worse with Memories, because it was during school, but THIS. Shit!
My OTP might, and I repeat might, just go from ZoroSanji to ShikamaruNeji.
Who even fucking cares?
They're both so hot.Like jesus, ZoSan has some
good, and I'm being dead serious,
hot, and
passionate love scenes.
But I just can't get over the obvious break in control Shikamaru gives to Neji. The insanity of their love grinding both of their facades to dust. The feral, instinctive, and carnal feel they both have when around each other, is just... god, way too hot.
The way they lose control, despite their geniuses, shows real first love like nothing else.With Memories, it was like falling in love all over again. Re-discovering what was lost and with even more passion the second time than the first. Gorgeous.
With Break To Breathe, it's like... I don't even know how to describe it. Like yanking on the chain of self-control and straining it, but then to let it go and run free and rampant. Like... feeling the first tugs of love clutching your self-control and throwing it out the window. Falling in love the first time, and mistaking every skipped heart beat and hitch of breath to be pain, rather than excitement. Feeling the insanities of First Love. Beautiful.
I'm gonna die. I swear, I'm gonna die if I don't read the next chapter, even if my eyes are all swollen and I'm actually pretty hungry; even if it's fucking 5:46 a.m. in the morning; even if the sun's up and the fucking
birds and awake; even if I'm going to
collapse tomorrow EVENING.
I have to know what happens.Serious BL, fanfiction, fangirl nutcase,
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