Like you. Like me.

Sometimes, you deserve it.
Sometimes, you ask for it.

Kill me for worrying.


てくてく
by ビアフラ @Pixiv

I'm sorry I care.
But no, you see, I'm not sorry for being this way.

I'm sorry that I show how I care

By being there for you.
By listening to you talk endlessly about meaningless things.
By listening when it means something.

By saying all the things you want to hear.

But most of all,
I'm sorry that's not enough for you.
And I'm sorry that you always disappoint me.
And I'm sorry I'm not brave enough to show you the right way to care for you.

I'm sorry, for trying to be important to you, like you were to me.

But I see that you've moved on.

"Just. Do what you want to do."
"But what if. What I want to do is wrong?"
"But it's what you want to do. How can it be wrong?"
"But isn't there a difference? Between should and want."
"Yeah, but there's an even bigger difference between being unhappy and happy."

てくてく?
by ビアフラ @Pixiv

And I'm sorry that I stopped you.
I'm sorry that all I've thought to teach you wasn't enough.
That you didn't understand me when I told you,
"You have to think about it. Clearly, but with your feelings."

I'm sorry that I couldn't teach you how to express yourself. I thought you always knew how.
Because you were bolder than me. Emotional. Sentimental.
You just had to think about how to express yourself.


Like me, you're a coward.
Like you, I'm a disappointment.

I made you into what you are.
You made me too tired to keep up.

I'm sorry.
I should have tried harder... waited longer.

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