Lived.

I've lived a life that's full
by から @Pixiv

I think I've played my part.

It's probably not surprising that the second round of Dragon Age is no fun anymore.
I mean, I loved DA the first time. Even the second half of the first part was AMAZING. I still remember how obsessed I was. How I wanted to help these people. How I wanted to be a good "Ferelden" and save the lives of all these people I don't know. Like WTF. I was an elf, whose race was treated like shit by the humans. Yet, I still saved them. Still became their hero.

But, I don't know. Maybe I'm just waiting for Dragon Age 2. I need a job. I need a better graphic card. Fuck.

And have I gone past the mark of 3,000 on how many times I've said, "I hate school"? I'm pretty sure I have because I fucking hate school. I want to drop out. Go back to school when I feel like I can do something with a high school... diploma or whatever shit.
Right now, I feel like I can't do anything. With or without a diploma. I need a life.

And yet, at the same time, I feel like I've lived it. I've lived my life and now I just want to be someone else.

And it's not as messed as it sounds.

Right?

I've lived my life.
Maybe it's not full, but it has been lived.

And that's all I could ever ask for. 海