If I said I had forgotten this feeling?
If I said that the last two years are nothing compared to this?It's not that I'm not glad to have been able to meet Luna, Riku, or anyone else. At the time, it was amazing. I was happy. So glad that I had new friends. New people to explore, study, and understand.
But there's the familiarity. The feeling of knowing some people, while others are complete strangers.
The same feeling I had in junior high.
Sure, some people might disagree with me.
Some might say that high school is the true "time of your life", but what's the point when I'm a stranger to everyone else?
I can know your name, but you might not know mine.Constantly, that's the feeling I had. The heavy feeling of: I know you, but you don't know me.
I could name three hundred people from HA. I could probably name another sixty-fifty people from Joe's, but ultimately, at the end of the day, no one knows me. Not even my name.
And I know. That's selfish, why would I need people to know my name? It's not like I'm aiming to be popular, or run for school president like Mr. Batman. But I think it's common decency. I think knowing someone's name, after just the second meeting, puts that person - makes that person - feel like they're worth something to you. That you're interested in what they have to say, that you want to get to know their story, that they're
not just another face in the crowd.
Sure, there are some things missing. Like, really, what is the sea without the sky? But there's something here. Something I haven't felt like I've been able to find in the last two years. Something big, and important, and necessary. Even though I can't say what it is right now.
I want to keep hoping it'll get better from here. I want to keep getting better.
I want to hope.
I want to wish.
I want to try.
Because even though I've always been told "No",
I need to start saying yes.海