Achieve.

Find The Inner Light
by *j-b0x @DA

Another day, another day I decided to waste away
and contemplate how everything has changed
and though we tried not to compromise
what burns inside your complex mind
that changes everyday

"Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know, at 22, what they wanted to do with their lives."

A month went by, a month that I can't describe,
A month I've been trying to push aside and forget in time.
And now we are inches away, but we're miles apart,
So I'll dream of the day and how we felt at the start.
But dreams don't come easy these days,
And the colors, they fade into grays.

"Some of the most interesting forty year olds I know, still don't know what to do with their lives."

The days go by. The weeks go by. The time flies. A year, two, three, and now ten.

What do I do to deserve better?

What do I do to stop feeling guilty? To stop feeling worried? To stop feeling so anxious? To stop breaking down like this?

I wanted control, but even when I have that, it gets so boring.
So tiring.
So demure.

I'm falling back into that black abyss of ennui. It's a spiral downward for a while now.

I have to get used to it. So it'll eat me alive for sure this time.

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