To Our Long Lost Sister & Friend

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by sorethroat @Pixiv

You'd know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised in a summery haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

Nothing compares, no worries or cares
Regret's and mistakes they're memories made
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste

I wish nothing but the best for you, too.

Dear, Hi Hello

""Mina" now, is it?

I used to know you as Krizzy, but I guess things change. You change. I change. Dona changes.

Ona, Emma, Dona. By order of height.

I would say it's funny, but I guess it's not really.
We've found new friends. Some old, some new. We've all went our separate ways, and I've stayed with Dona.

I used to think we had so much in common. I used to think that because we had parents of the same nationalities that we could be close, that because we shared a language we could be close, but really, all that chained me to you and you to me, was Dona.

I'm sure Dona still sees you as the sweet, loving girl that we grew to knew all throughout junior high. All throughout elementary. All throughout our time together.

But I just want to let you know, that I grew to hate you in our last year together. I understand why. I'll never put it down.
Things will never be the same.

Which I have come to understand.

Once you said, "I'm sick of your whole hypocrite-thing."
I'll say it's funny now, because you were the one doing the most hypocrisy.
You always thought you were the best person out there, you know that?
Good grades, higher grades. Pretty, prettier. Popular, envied.

You were the reason I named my blog "Eternal Invidia".

It pissed me off how much I psycho-analyzed you. How much I peeled you open, and noticed, and tried to help.

How much I cared.

And yet, you said you just wanted everything to be "casual".

You'll never fall in love like that you know? Just like your sister.

Dona didn't know you like I did.
I didn't talk about you like how she talked about her new friends.
I didn't talk about you at all, actually.

I remember I talked about black holes in the beginning of this blog.

You were kind of the black hole in my life then.

I'm sure you would know why.

Anyway, I'm glad you're happy know. Found something like love. Found someone who will stick around.

Congrats.

Someone Like You."

Every time I talk to you, it's like this.
Not much emotion, just slightly painful words.

I still care. You were a person I cared about, but I didn't know you in the end, and I don't know what to talk about other than who you were at the end.

The song really says it all.

I wish for nothing but the best for you.

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