Who the fuck are you?

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by wooga @Pixiv

Is he the one who you think will hold your hand
when things fuck up?

When you fuck up?

"I have trust issues."

Well, maybe I do, too.

Because I don't know a single other fucking person who appreciates honesty as much as I do.
Who hates lying more than I do.


I'm sorry, but did we talk about this?
Didn't we talk about this?
Oh wait, what didn't we talk about?
Oh, that's right. All the things I talk about with Nina, now.
Oh, right, what was it we talked about again?
Oh, fucking right, what lying is.

"Is not telling someone something considered lying?"

Yes.

"Why?"

Because the intention of a lie is to manipulate someone's thinking. When you don't tell the whole truth, you are lying because your intention is to manipulate this person to think what you want them to think. You're only giving the person as much information as needed to make them think what you want them to.

And, yes, just recently, I asked you,
"Do you think you can make-up for lying by telling the truth later?"
I thought I could forgive it all. I thought it wouldn't matter as long as you told the truth.

I guess it's different when you actually experience it.

Maybe, just maybe, you're justified. Were you lying to protect him? Was that it?
Lying so I wouldn't cut off all communication with him?
Lying so no one would say anything hurtful to him?
...Or maybe you were just lying to protect yourself?

You said, "Depends on how long they hold it up for."
And, "I don't think you can... because you lied in the first place."
And, "I don't think it makes you a bad person. Unless you hurt someone with your lie."

And, now I say:
You goddamn
Hypocrite.

I'm not sure how you can "make-up" or "correct" this "mistake".

I never thought you could, or would, fuck up this badly.
I never thought your stupidity could fuck this up so bad.

I'm sorry, but
Who the fuck are you?

Because I don't remember meeting you.
I don't remember how we met.
I don't remember your name.
I don't remember your face.

I just know

You spat some goddamn lies in my face
and I don't think I can trust you
as much as I did before I met you.

I just want you to know,

You used to be so honest.

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