it's kind of silly.

How I always want to be protected.

【腐】もっと!!冷静になれよ！！【海賊】
by ら あ き @Pixiv

Sometimes, I just want to be held.
Without having to be scared of what I would see.
Of what I would hear.
Of what I am.

I know it's dumb.

Dumb of me to be ignorant and pretend that I don't have a father.

I've been doing it since I was a child.

I haven't forgotten.

But whether it's smart or daft or ignorant or careless, I really don't care.

It's no longer a matter of whether he was here or not. It's no longer a matter of whether he cares or not.

He's not important to me. He is a stranger, being labeled as something one must respect and love. If I don't love or respect him, that is not for anyone to judge or criticize.

Whose right is it to tell me it's wrong to close my eyes and forget?
Whose right is it to tell me it's wrong to lie back and let someone else protect me?

Get out of my face. I don't need you.

Recently, there's a sort of secret I'm keeping with Nina. I'm not sure whether it's mine to tell everyone here or not. Nina may not want anyone to know right now. I'm not sure.

It's really kind of silly.

Even though it's no laughing matter.

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