Ouch I have lost myself again Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found, Yeah I think that I might break I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
It's... It was easy for me, you know? To hurt myself.
Hurt myself again today And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Breathe Me - Sia
That way, I knew. I knew exactly what I was doing. Because I wasn't the cause of the problem. I could watch again. I could see things from a different - from afar. But when I'm suddenly
the last person I want to see. Do you think I can help myself?
There's a reason why I can never be the main character, on the center of the stage. There's a reason why I can't get up and make miracles happen. There's no reason to stop me.
Should I be clear? Should I make this easy?
Should I explain...? Because in a way, I understand her. Because in a way, I can feel her. Because in a way, I know she's there. Because in a way, that I can't explain, I wish I could grant her wish.
Because it's not what you're made from, it's what you are.
And that's wrong. Because I know...
It's what you're made of. Not what you are. It's everything about what you're made from. Everything is about what people see and believe.
But they see nothing.
I had control. I lost control. I'm nothing like a main character. It's not personal.
「ねえ。聴こえてる?ねえ、。俺の…」【腐】 by 兎魚 蓮 @Pixiv